Hello and welcome to this lucky Friday, December 13, 2019! It is a rare and precious day that will never come again!
Mindfulness has ruined my life!
I used to be so certain about my life and how the world worked. I’m right, you’re wrong, here’s why! My resentments and anger used to be justified. I thought for sure that I was seeing things so clearly. You said or did “this,” therefore it meant “that.” Simple and straightforward! I can’t even stay mad at anyone for more than a few minutes anymore before I see the nature of my anger. I believed my anger was because of you! You were the source of it. Or, so I thought. Mindfulness has shown me that I am responsible for my anger. When I am irritated, there is something wrong with me. This is not fair!
My happiness used to be dependent upon you. When you treated me right, in a manner that I found pleasing, then I was happy. When you didn’t give me what I needed, how could I possibly be happy? Decisions seemed clear-cut when my happiness was contingent on things outside of myself. All I had to do was point to the solution. Happiness is an inside job? What does that even mean? I’m responsible