Hello and welcome to this glorious Friday, February 19, 2021. Today is a rare and precious day that will never come again.
It’s hard to grow up. It’s taken me awhile to even develop a clear idea of what it means to mature. Maybe I got in the wrong line when these instructions were handed out when I was a kid. Or maybe I was told but I was so consumed with wanting what I wanted that I couldn’t hear the lessons. Regardless, through a comprehensive Mindfulness practice, I’m starting to get a clue as to what it means to mature. And most important, I’m starting to grow up.
I feel like a significant obstacle to maturity was that I really did want what I wanted when I wanted it. There was no waiting. Patience? Seriously? Not a chance. I wanted what I wanted without ever really asking if it was what I really wanted. I had an idea of what I wanted, I believed it, and I did what I needed to do to make whatever it was materialize so that I could be happy. Usually, these un-insightful choices created more suffering than lasting happiness. More often than not, I would compromise something that was important so that I could get my immediate wants fulfilled.
There are hundreds of superficial examples that I could offer at this point. But I want to dive in, deep.